MY EGOCENTRIC THINKING: December 2009

How do you know that what you wish for is the best for you? The answer is you DON’T! Indeed, it is true. Only one person knows what is good for us, what is bad for us and what is best for us. The one person is Allah S.W.T.. Allah keeps on saying in the Quran that He knows what is best for us. He also keeps on saying that He knows what we know not.

Why am I saying this? It is because I am experiencing it now. This week suppose to be a very good week for me. I received a lot of great news (but at the end of the week, I received a very bad news). I finally got what I had fought for. I should be happy because I had fought for it for a long time. I prayed to Allah to grant my wish but after a long duration only Allah grants my doa. But, it turns out that it is not the best for me. I believe that is the reason why Allah did not give it to me at the 1^st place. Now, I wish that I did not get it. Sigh!

Here I don’t mean that we should stop praying to Allah to grant us with what we wish for and simply accept whatever that may come to us. But what I mean here is that, we should always ask from Allah as Allah never says NO to all His servants’ prayers. Allah answers the prayers of His servant positively in one of the 3:

1. YES.

2. YES, but not now

3. I have a better plan for you.

So, keep on praying and request for what Allah thinks the best for you and not what you think the best for you.

Dah berabuk rupanyer blog nie. Hehehe. Sorry about that. I just don’t have anything to write or share it with all of you. Plus, I’m a bit busy with study and organizing programme. I just finished sitting for my End Block Exam. The exam was really hard! Menyesal tak buat SDL betul2. I’m praying hard that I will pass this block with better result than last block although I know the chance is small.

“Making your mark on the world is hard. If it were easy, everybody would do it. But it’s not. It takes patience, commitment and repeated failures” – Barrack Obama

Furthermore, we shouldn’t be losing faith on Allah. Mana tau, Allah bukak hati penanda soalan. Bagi markah lebih or tak nampak all the mistakes I did. :-)

Enough about study. I would like to take the opportunity to wish Happy Belated Birthday to Ainie. Semoga panjang umur and murah rezeki. :-) Each time when her birthday arrived, it makes me realize that we are soon going to wish good bye to 2009. GOD! Time passes so fast. I feel like we just celebrated New Year like last week. I realized that I have wasted a lot of time! Her birthday also reminds me that I’ll be celebrating my 22nd birthday in about 2 months. I can’t believe that I have lived in this world for more than 2 decades already. I questioned myself on what have I done so far? I had difficulties in answering that question. Maybe, it is not the time yet for me to ask the question. I should wait until I graduated at least. But when I think about it again, if I have to wait until I graduated, it will bring the meaning that I shouldn’t be contributing to the society at present at which I believe is totally wrong. I regard at this age is the golden time. The youngsters have their maximum capability. We should optimize it!

As I mentioned earlier, I’ll be celebrating my birthday soon. This time, I’m not looking forward for my birthday. I’m excited to get my first nephew. YEAH!!!! At the moment, I have 2 nieces. I’m really looking forward to get a nephew. My sister in law is expected to deliver her second child in February. The doctor said that it’s a boy. So, I am really excited. I can’t wait. The sad thing is that she’ll be delivering her baby at The Hague, thousands of miles away from here. So, I won’t be able to see and play with the baby! I have not event met her 1^st child for about 1 ½ year. Her first child is now 2 years and 3 months. So, I have not been on my niece’s life for more than half of her life. The only way for me to “mengubat rindu” is via looking at her photos in facebook. Here, I share some of it.

I like these 2 pictures. Cute~